The yearly new chapter starts tomorrow and as I reflect on what was 36.
I learned so much about myself this past year. I had conversations with people I never imagined – in all forms of life about everything. As a Lyft driver I picked up a lot of elderly and disabled. Some would get in my car and tell me their life story in the matter of minutes. From health problems to life issues they were trying to work out. After a while I realized life isn’t as bad as I once thought. It gave me a new perspective that each day is a new beginning and to count my blessings.
Finding Westport is something that blossomed. Not only is it my inspiration to keep me going with trying to relocate but starting the site has pushed me to work harder -learn new web design skills – sharpened up my graphic design that I left by the waste side. The site led me to people who I never imagined would enter my life over the last year I feel like I have come out my shell more. For something I was unsure about a year ago, not living in the area (yet) but reception was warm and welcoming and I’m happy I continued on.
Sunrise, Compo Beach, Westport, Connecticut.
I traveled a lot this year. I would like to say I went to some new and exciting places. It was mostly Westport and the surrounding areas of Fairfield County. Some people might not understand my love for Fairfield County, but for me, learning the history and meeting new people/making a connection was better than going on a random trip.
The most important thing I have learned, and have focused on over the years is self-love. Out of all the things, the people who have crossed my path during my teen and early 20’s who were not willing to help and caused all kinds of negative vibes – it took a long time to get where I am today and there is no way I am going back to that life.
Looking back.
A note to my 26 year old self: Things will be ok. Stop worrying about everything. You got this. Not everyone is going to treat you the same way. Keep your expeditions high and carry on. Start new projects, learn new things, get out of your comfort zone, keep up with your graphic design skills. You’re going places but it’s just beginning. Life is going to throw you some challenges, but you’ll get through it. You always do. Stop undervaluing your worth – you are much better then you think you are. Go get a gym membership and jump on an arch trainer, you’ll thank your 36 year old self. P.s. can the jerk in your life. You don’t need him. Someone better comes along, one who makes you happy. Stop looking and focus on yourself. Fall in love with yourself, then everything will fall into place. (Don’t worry about Big Bang Theory ending anytime soon – it ends in 2019, and yes you’ll cry during the finale.)
A note to my 16 year old self: You don’t know it yet but you’re filled with creativity. It will take some time to find it. – but when you do, you’ll know your path in life. You will move a few times and fall in love with some unique areas of this country. The most important one is the one you will stumble across accidentally. Trust me, it’s worth the wait. Continue to learn – learn to inspire – and grow. The best relationship you will have is with yourself. Once you have a good foundation – things will improve and life will be worth it, even with all of the trials and tribulations you will go through.
The future
I don’t know what 37 will bring. I am hopeful that new and exciting things will transpire. Like a new career – being able to finally relocate and start that new big chapter – who knows maybe you’ll finally beable to lose this weight to have surgery to get rid of the hernia, have stable income and be able buy a house – with a home office and show the world everything I am capable of doing.
